I haven't tried this in a really long time. My mind goes in a thousand directions all the time. I have let myself go body wise for a while now. I have been so unhappy with myself for so long, I don't even know how to be anymore. Food has taken over my life for years now. Everything I do revolves around food. I can't take it anymore. All I want to do is be better and do better...and then it goes to shit.... I am so tired of feeling this way and I don't know how to get out of it. Yes, I know..just stop thinking about it and just do it....get up early, go to the gym....eat better...and the rest will follow.... it all seems so easy..until you have to actually do it. When you look at yourself and you see how far out of shape you have become...and you don't know how it happened and how to start being better. I am about 60 pounds overweight. I am only 5 feet tall....I should be about 110-120...im about 167... I have had so many trainers, have tried so many d